I want to tell you about someone in my life that I love so much But before I continue… I need to confess one thing..I never really liked him at some point…I didn’t hate him, but I was SO indifferent.. It didn’t matter to me whether he existed or not,
Then something happened to me one day..Someone told me some things about myself that were not right, and how I needed to change,And how I needed to turn over my life to this person…My Life…MY OWN LIFE!
Can you beat that? I didn’t find it funny at all..Why and how could I just not be in control of my life? Afterall, it was mine, wasn’t it?I thought about it, and after a while, I felt, well…It won’t cost me anything to be closer to this much talked about person,… Infact.., I started liking the idea, because I was getting a bit bored, and I wanted something different.Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing adventurous about me, not at all..But then, I thought about doing something different..What was I telling you about, by the way? Oh yes, about this man I love..When I say, I love him, I mean it exactly the way it sounds, I really do love Him..But I want to make something clear, I didn’t start loving him when I decided I wanted something different…Infact, I didn’t even realize that I needed to love Him, at first..I thought it would be okay to just do what he wants (or, well…at least try to do what He wants…at least, I’m only human, I can’t always do it right, abi?)
But years later, I realized I had gotten it all wrong…all very wrong..And then I discovered what was missing…I didn’t love Him the way I should..Have you ever been in love? Yes?Then I’m sure you’ll understand what I’m talking about…You know how you want to be with the person you love, talk to her, make her happy etc etc…I realized that I didn’t feel all that for this person I’m talking about, and it made it so burdensome..(Letting someone you don’t love have control of your life is not an interesting thing to do, I can assure you…)
Until one day..I fell in love with Him,…Now, don’t ask me how it happened, because I honestly can’t even explain it (I have an idea, though..)Things changed for me from that day onwards,Love turned my life around..I began to appreciate Him as a person, as my friend, my confidant, my love, and I always want to please Him (not that I don’t still have my struggles oh.., but I find it easier now to rely on Him and trust Him to help me with my weaknesses..)
And then I realized one simple truth..Do you want me to share it with you?Okay, I will..You can never really love someone truly until you have experienced this love I’m talking about..I know you don’t agree with me.. Infact, I can see you shake your head…(Sigh..)I would have been shocked if you agreed with me…You know why?Because then, it would have seemed so easy..Am I still making sense? Okay, let me try and be a bit more explicit..I’m talking about the Love explained in I Corinthians 13
This type of love is God’s own type of love that comes from knowing Christ..That doesn’t mean people that are not born again do not love… they do…But God’s original idea of love is the type of love that made Him sacrifice His only begotten son..The type of love that made the son willing to give Himself up..It is this same type of love that we need to have before we can REALLY surrender it all to Him..Without this love…forget it…It cannot work..
But then, I want to ask a question at this point..Why would I be ready to go an extra mile for someone I love, and yet I can’t give it all to someone who died for me…I mean…He loved me (the same way I claim to love someone else) and gave it all for me, but yet I can’t do the same..Have you ever loved someone and the person couldn’t just return your love? How did it feel?Can you imagine a little of what this person I’m talking about is going through right now, just because I either don’t want to return the love, or maybe I can’t feel the love..You can’t feel the love? Is that it?Then its easy..
Remember that He died, while we were yet sinners, so He knows that the love may not come easy, so He has promised that if only we come to Him, He’ll HELP us to love Him…Or…I don’t want to return the love, because I think I’m not ready..?
Then guess what? For every minute that I reject His love, I break his heart, and I’m nailing Him to the cross all over again, and again, and again…and yet again…How sad! (Sigh)And then I begin to wonder…Can my celebration of love be really complete, when I have not been able to return the love of the person that died for me, this person that loves me so much…
I need to get back to work…I just felt like sharing my love story with you..But before I forget…
HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!